It’s been 3 years today since Michael Jackson died and it doesn’t get any easier. The mere thought that we’ve lived in a world without Michael Jackson for the past 3 years is unbearable to me. Thinking that there will be a 4th, a 5th, a 10th anniversary of his passing hurts me even more.
When Michael was still alive, I used to wonder how I would react when I’d learn about his death. I was thinking about that quite often actually, because I was well aware that he was not immortal and that he could be there one day and gone the next day. I was dreading it and sometimes, I would go to bed thinking “What if I wake up tomorrow and turn on the TV or the radio and learn that Michael died during the night?” In fact, a few days before Michael died, I was thinking about it again. I even eerily predicted what would happen when I thought to myself “If he dies today, I suppose they filmed his rehearsals and they’ll show the footage to the world. At least, people will see that he still had it.” Of course, I had no idea this was exactly what was going to happen four months later…
But no matter how hard I tried to imagine how I would react to his death, it was simply impossible to imagine. Just like I’ll never know how I would have felt if I had met him and hugged him, no matter how many times I dreamed about it. And there’s another thing I never imagined because it never even crossed my mind: that one day, we’d have to live in a world where it’s been 3 days, 3 months or 3 years since Michael Jackson died. I thought a lot about the moment I’d learn his death, but never about how living in a world without Michael Jackson would be like. This is what hurts the most. Learning his death was a hard moment to live but it only lasted a moment. The hardest part was not that moment, it is to have to live without him for the rest of our lives. It is to miss him knowing he’ll never come back. And this part will last forever.
To me, June 25 is not a day where I remember what happened or how I felt on June 25, 2009. Every June 25 will be a day where I remember that it’s one more year of missing Michael and one more year of pain that’s adding to the pain already there. It’s supposed to get easier with time, but the more time goes by, the more pain I feel. I will never stop loving and missing Michael and it will never stop hurting.
In some areas of the world it is already the 25th of June, 2012. Three years have passed since the world lost such a wonderful soul, great entertainer and most importantly a wonderful, very rare human being. I say rare because there will never be another like Michael. No matter how many try to imitate his work or surpass his records, there will never be another as talented, generous, caring and above all one of a kind as Michael. I still believe there are some people who see Michael as ‘The King of Pop’ and only that, but now—to this day there are many more minds who think as his friends, family and fans do. Because Michael is much more than the title the industry has given him, he always will be.
Today we remember Michael’s strength, love, compassion, music, beauty, perfectionism, kind heart, his work and much more. Today we celebrate his legacy, his life and how much he gave to the world as well as how much he inspired others to give back. He inspired many of us to ‘Make That Change’ and be a better person. We can never forget that.
Though our hearts are heavy, we need to smile through the tears, because we aren’t remembering what was lost but what had been and still continues to show through his music and through the hearts of all who love Michael.
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